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Results?

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Online Exam Results for Chloe Mok

Customer Communications
C
Marketing Environment
B
Marketing Fundamentals
B
Marketing in Practice
B

Somebody please tell me whether should I feel glad or sad?

I teared knowing the A-less I got, and happy when I know that I'm the highest scorer in class.

Ah, there's a whole lot of story behind it. I shall shut my mouth up and make sure people won't find me too proud or arrogant to feel sad over such 'excellent' results as perceived by others.

Today, the first day of school after the exam results were released. This was what I messaged my mom:

"I went in to class like a star. I went in to the staff room like a star. I am the star of the day. Scary."

Mom said, "Pressure is sure catching up on you. Never knew you could make us this proud."
I replied, "You should have seen how I escaped!"

Thinking back on this short conversation, I realized how disappointing was I in the past. Truth to be told, I was never the studious one at home, and I was never expected to get excellent results that would make my parents proud of me. I have never convinced my parents and family with my results.

This time, the funniest part was this is my worst results. First time not getting an A. Guess mom and dad didn't expect much too. As soon as they know I cleared all papers, they felt so super happy for me while I felt bad. They were probably cheering me up.

So. For this. I'm happy. :)

I'll be studying doubly hard for this coming exams, and I want to clear all 4 papers.
Hopefully, and prayerfully.

Another thing which I have noticed about myself recently. I'm turning cold to everybody else nowadays. I can't even laugh in conversations or joke in speeches. Bad news.

I need to think. Think. Think.
I'll come back to you some day later.